so i realized the reason why last semester i got a 3.8ish and why i got 4.0′s earlier in my college career: I GOT LAZY!!!! here I am, doing all of these funnnnn things oh yey ^_^ winetasting on the weekends, weekend trips, partying on the weekends, going home and “relaxing”NO! jesus f’ing christ 17, [...]
Archive for January, 2012
blaughghghg
Posted in Uncategorized on January 30, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
Posted in Uncategorized on January 25, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
ahh, i think i miss being infatuated/in love/obsessed with something. my life is pretty cool right now. there’s just… kind of a lot to do and it’s making me paralyzed. and on top of this i don’t have internet at home, gah.
things are getting exciting at work
Posted in Uncategorized on January 25, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
THERE IS SO FUCKING MUCH TO DO my once-nice little schedule is now completely full. and i’ve said goodbye to all those fitness things i’d wanted to do. god, it’s so weird how i’m now in a place in my life when going out for a run is a RELAXING LUXURY and I WANT to [...]
holi shit
Posted in Uncategorized on January 24, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
this semester is driving towards me like an unstoppable train!! SCHOOL full-on work. heavy load. interesting classes. wish i’d had this mindset earlier. senior thesis giving me white hair. *add a circuits decal? SOCIAL this area is good. i love my friends. i love that i’m making time for them. also i’ve been invited to [...]
Sent from my LG Thrill
Posted in Uncategorized on January 19, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
I think the theme of this semester is not only for me to say yes, but also to ask. Because I realized that staying safe for fear of being hurt defaulted in me being hurt anyway. So… I’ll try living! Of course I’m still me and I’m still going to be cautious. But… hello. :)
i. want. you. (to want me) i. need. you. (to need me)
Posted in Uncategorized on January 11, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
the weird thing is that thing that I wanted so much has actually always been within my grasp. but i don’t want it if i’m to be the actor. so luo4suo1. maybe part of me doesn’t want it if it’s that easy.
if
Posted in Uncategorized on January 10, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
if i were organized and put things away carefully and weighed 90 pounds would my mother come home and hug me instead of yelling at me? or would she find other things? the slamming of the door reverberates through my spine the sound waves stream from her mouth in stinging tentacles when i hear the [...]
i can’t get over the inanity of conversation
Posted in Uncategorized on January 9, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
it’s such a poor substitute for touch or doing i should be a dumb animal
Sent from my LG thrill
Posted in Uncategorized on January 9, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
I feel like my heart is withering Also family vacations are trying but it can be lonely to be alone after being around others 24 hours a day, especially when they let you cuddle with them What I need is a good distraction To help me ignore Today my dad picked us up from the [...]
it’s in the stars
Posted in Uncategorized on January 2, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
I love how “old cultures” all have mythology surrounding the night sky. How they noticed the “Dark Rift” in the sky and how certain stars clumped together or how certain bodies were nearer to or further from each other throughout the passing of a year. I hardly ever look up at the night sky. But [...]
